Inspiration

Inspirational-Site-Looking-for-Quotes-and-Sayings-Looking-for-a-Quote-Every-accoWhat inspires you? Have you asked yourself that question in a while? I know I needed to ask myself this question, and to be honest I am still mulling it over. You see I have been feeling very uninspired since the new year rolled around. I have three youtube channels that I vlog for;  I do family vlogs, I film hauls and I should be filming cooking videos for a new start up channel, and yet all I want to do is well, nothing.

I am in a slump.

We have all heard of writers block right?  I guess you could call what I’m going thru as vlogger block. I keep thinking I could do a video on my planner. Did you know planners are a big thing on the tube? Well, they are. Then, my next thought is “does youtube need another planner video?” Probably not. Then I think, I will film a video on home decor tips. I love to decorate my home but I don’t really fall into any one category of decor. I guess you could call it classic vintage with a shabby twist? Yeah, that doesn’t seem like a video I can make when there are yet again, a million video’s on home decor. Ultimately I think myself into a feeling of utter inadequacy.  What could I possibly have to offer someone?

Scratch.

I find myself walking down the twisted path of discouragement far away from Inspiration. Thoughts of having tried and failed come to mind. Thoughts of mean people leaving nasty comments come to mind. Ugh. That’s the worst. I’m constantly asking myself why am I doing this?  That is when thoughts of my wonderful subscribers come to mind, my YouTube family as I have been known to call them. People I feel I will be letting down if I quit.  However, what about my own happiness, right?

I’m 41. My life is half over. I have to ask, is this vlogging business on YouTube the way to spend my time? I think that’s a valid question for all of us in our 40’s, no matter what it is we are doing. Life is short and what we do should make us happy. This being said I tend to live in a relative constant state of self evaluation.  I think this sets me apart from most people I encounter. I find that compared to others I have talked with I think too much. Most people act first and think later. I’ve always known what I wanted from life, most of which I haven’t had to much trouble with making happen and some of it I’m still working on. It isn’t always easy. I’m the first person to admit that. It gets me or my readers anywhere to say it’s easy because lets face it, it’s not. It is however worth it in the end.

So, where does one find inspiration to keep moving forward? For me, it’s most often my faith. Outside of that Pinterest is a good place providing it doesn’t make one feel too heavy.  So many beautiful things already exist and finding a niche that is all ones own is daunting.  I’m always saying, is there any room for something new, something fresh? I think, what the hell do I have to offer that hasn’t already been done 100 times better already?  The answer is yes, yes  there is room because it hasn’t been done my way yet until I give it a try, my way. The same goes for all of us.

mindsetWhat is a mindset. A mindset is a set of assumptions, methods, or notations held by someone, or more so in the case of the context of this blog post, I would define it for myself as being “an attitude, disposition, or mood” as defined by the good ole dictionary. Yep. Attitude determined by mood, or Mood determined by Attitude. Either way. That’s it in a nutshell. And my attitude and mood have been questionable.

Long story short, I’m thinking on it too hard. The last place I should, or anyone should be looking  for inspiration is at the work of another person. Look within.

That’s  where you will find true inspiration. We all have knowledge, we all have some kind of life experience and we all have formed different points of view, attitudes and associations based on how our psychological selves reacted to a situation. That’s what makes us unique. That is where no one can copy another.

Sometimes, sitting alone in a quiet place spending time with oneself will bring the deepest and most sincere inspiration.

It wasn’t long before I found myself out of  my rut and into a better mindset. I came to the conclusion that even if a topic has been “talked about”,  “filmed”, “blogged”, etc. It hasn’t been done  from my point of view, my mindset, my experiences and so on. What matters is taking the chance on myself and sharing my point of view.  When we share our individual mind set and life experience with others we open not only our own mind but perhaps those of others to a new way of seeing the world.  Not everyone will relate or line up in “mindset” but for the one or two that I might touch on a positive note, I think it’s worth it.

Mamie Rae

“Whether you think you can or cant….you’re right!”